But you see, there is
a graveyard in my mouth
filled with words that
have died on my lips.
Wednesday, 10:16 AM   + 52
gram-optimist said: Thank your for 'Your sadness is a poison." I can't communicate the number of times I've sat quietly crying into books in coffee shops waiting for someone to come and talk to me. Romanticizing my depression because too many authors wrote beautiful sad female characters. No one has pointed out how dangerous that was so eloquently before. Thank you thank you thank you.

God, I understand this so well because I wrote that poem as a sort of wake-up call for myself because I was always, always waiting for someone to swoop in and romanticize me the way I’ve seen in movies and books, when the truth is that never really happens, and all it does is trap us in a toxic cycle, and God, if my poem can help other people, then I am so, so glad, and just thank you for telling me this. 

Monday, 06:58 PM   + 15
gram-optimist   asks  

1. Let’s be honest for once. I will love you fierce; I will love you terrible. I will carve out your heart, and you will be grateful for the end.

2. You accuse me of faithlessness, but I do believe in the light bursting from our skin, the divinity breaking our bones to pieces.

3. I was not born difficult; my father can attest to that, screaming it until he coughs up blood that his daughter was born without a spine.

4. History repeats itself, we know this much. History sings the same songs, fucks the same girls, drinks the same whiskey night after night in the saddest passion play the world has ever seen.

5. Maybe one day I won’t say your name like a penance, like I thought there was absolution in your veins instead of blood, instead of something so devastatingly human. I’m hunting for angels here, something divine and holy, something that will scrub me clean.

6. My mother says I need to prepare for the real world and maybe she’s right. I hope she’s right. I hope the ice in my chest is imagined, that one day I’ll wake up and this will all have been a dream.

7. We can only go forward; we can only let go. I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry.

8. I am trying not to rot in this grave you dug me.

by Emily Palermo, vii.
Anonymous said: you included the gemma doyle trilogy in your favorite books. asdfghjkl;. this is so cool, i love them too! they're so underrated and no one ever reads them. i don't know why, they're wonderful! who is your favorite character if you don't mind me asking?

Oh, man I read them when I was in middle school and I was in AWE, like I reread them earlier this year and The Sweet Far Thing wrecks me every single time. And as far as characters go, I really love Gemma and Felicity and Kartik. And Miss Moore, who may be my favorite. 

Sunday, 04:02 PM   + 4
jamessebastianbarnes said: Man, I'm also a huge Maggie Stiefvater fan! Which book of hers is your favorite? And I also absolutely love the Captain America movies! You don't secretly run a fandom blog, do you?

Ah, The Wolves of Mercy Falls trilogy will always hold a special place in my heart because Sam Roth was on of the first fictional guys I ever fell in love with, but I really love The Raven Cycle!

And my personal blog is pretty multi-fandom, but since I saw CATWS, it’s been very heavy on the Marvel content!

Sunday, 04:00 PM   + 1
Anonymous said: Who are your favourite authors/poets/books/movies? And how old are you? I adore your writing btw, I haven't found a poem of yours that I don't love. Your talent is just undescribably beautiful.

Thank you so very much! 

i’m just going to make lists because that’s the easiest way to do things:

Authors/Poets: Richard Siken, Edna St. Vincent Millay, Mary Oliver, Jane Austen, Maggie Stiefvater, Kurt Vonnegut, The Brontës, Catherynne M. Valente, Caitlyn Siehl, Margaret Atwood

Books: The Song of Achilles, Deathless, Jane Eyre, Pride & Prejudice, Wuthering Heights, The Secret History, The Handmaid’s Tale, East of Eden, To Kill a Mockingbird, Persuasion, The Great Gatsby, The Gemma Doyle Trilogy, The Wolves of Mercy Falls, The Book Thief

Movies: Across the Universe, Snowpiercer, Dead Poets Society, Captain America: The First Avenger/The Winter Soldier, the 2005 Pride and Prejudice, Pacific Rim, Clue, Kill Your Darlings, Casablanca, Tangled, Hercules, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, The Princess Bride

Oh, and I’m 18!

Sunday, 03:46 PM   + 12
vanilla-revenge said: Sorry to bother you but mind if I ask what theme you're currently using? I've been looking for one very similar to yours. I promise you I don't mean to imitate you or anything like that! I just happen to be very interested in writing as well. Hope you have a lovely day :)

i typically use themes from this maker. I think this one is called Frontier, but they have a lot of really simple, clean ones.

Sunday, 03:35 PM   + 2
asks   vanilla-revenge  
Anonymous said: Hey! Can I quote some of your works, I'll give credit don't worry, in something I'm writing for my class? You can say no if you want, it's alright :)

of course!

Sunday, 11:22 AM   + 0
Be brave.
Courage isn’t measured by the
number of people you’ve turned away
or by the counts of the nights you’ve
spent alone because you refuse to
give someone the chance to love you.
Being alone is not poetic;
you’ve got to let them in.
Let them peel back your skin
and waltz into your bloodstream
and love them,
love them,
love them.
by Emily Palermo, “A Lesson in Entropy” (via theilliteratewrites)
Thursday, 07:17 PM   + 96

Today marks the one year anniversary of my starting this blog, so I really just want to thank you all for all the kind words and support that you give. It means the absolute world to me!